Well seeing as this is my very first blog I figured I should give you a proper introduction.
No point in boring you with the standard athlete talk. Might as well get into the nitty gritty!
Yes I always played sports from a young age, but had never anticipated recognition as an athlete, let alone as a bodybuilder, especially when I hadn't even known bodybuilding was a sport. But here I am, fitness model, body sculptor, just trying to accomplish my dream of competing.
It's funny hearing male friends constantly tell me that I was hotter when I was 'skinny', but ironically, I feel the most beautiful now than what I ever have. Maybe it's because I no longer see myself as that same weak child who fell victim to bullying and sexual abuse throughout her teenage years. The child who would cry for her mother every night when she fell asleep. The child who packed her bags at the age of 18 and walked out her parents door one morning after they left for work to try and escape her problems. Looking back it's weird to think how training helped me overcome my self esteem issues and depression, brought on by childhood events, losing my mother at a young age, bullying, the psycho ex boyfriend.
But for the first time in years, I don't feel the need to cover my legs in board shorts at the beach, I feel sexy and feminine wearing a dress and I am completely confident and content with myself, physically and emotionally.
3 years ago I wanted a change. I wanted to change the way I saw myself. The hardest thing for many woman with low self esteem is that first time they set foot in a gym, and I was never overweight, and considered beautiful, however it was just as hard for me as it was for anyone else.. But with the physical changes suddenly came the mental changes, the emotional strength, focus, the power to believe in myself. And what do you know, a few months later I step into a club, approached by the owner who loved my look and BAM. All of a sudden I am an Ironman Magazine Wet'n Wild calendar model. Within months I had a 2 page spread in Australian Ironman magazine, as well as a separate feature in a later issue, and 2 separate magazine covers.
I literally stumbled in the fitness industry.
Having competed once 3 years ago now, I realised I loved the stage. Since, I have been heavily involved in my training, tweaking my physique for when I believe it is ready for the stage. And now I am 12 weeks out of the WBFF World Championships in Canada, personally invited by former IFBB Pro, Paul Dillet.
So that's a little insight into who I really am.
Hope you enjoyed my first blog. There will be regular updates on my competition progress, dieting, upcoming photo shoots and features.
Keep a look out for my next write up in next months Australian Ironman magazine.
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